At my age I have felt a great deal of emotions.....
I have been so overfilled with joy that I don't know how my heart contained it.
I have been proud of my children and my family.
I have felt love and warmth and happiness.
Along with all these wonderful feelings I have experienced some not so wonderful feelings.
Fear......
Pain.....
Loss......
Sorrow.....
Grief.....
One feeling I have never experienced until lately is desperation. Complete desperation....
That burning in your stomach that will not stop. That overwhelming,
paralyzing feeling when you have no idea where to turn or what to do. That sick, hot awareness that you have no idea what will happen next or how it will all turn out.
I have never experienced that......
Until lately.
Lord, I know that there are things that can't control, but You can. Please, help me today.
