Friday, February 19, 2010

Sometimes I Cry

There is joy in my life,
I'm blessed with happiness,
I have so much to be thankful for.
But there are times of pain
That overshadow my world,
It's those times I long to reach You,
My Comforter and Strength,
My Tower and Provider through it all.
It's not doubt that brings my tears,
Not confusion or fears,
Just a need for a shelter in the storm.

Sadness comes to every heart
Somewhere down life's road
And we come face to face with loss and pain.
But my Promise speaks into my heart
Though there are tears on my face,
No matter what the morning always comes.
So allow me my weeping,
Knowing it endures but a time.

Sometimes I cry,
Sometimes I weep,
Sometimes I fall down at Your feet.
My heart still breaks,
My souls still aches,
The load gets hard for me to take.
It's not a lack of faith,
It's a need for Your embrace.
Through the storms of my life
Sometimes I cry.

I don't ask for understanding
For why I pour out my heart to Him
His peace is everlasting,
His light is never dim.
I know He holds my problem
Within His nail scarred hand,
And when my heart is crushed and broken,
That's when I seek His face,
To fill my life with mercy again.

Monday, February 8, 2010

I Have To Say It....

I try to be uplifting and positive...

But, you are about to be subjected to a rant.

If you do not want to read my rant, kindly move on, otherwise.....

I was in high school when I decided I wanted to go into Nursing. Granted, it took me a little while to get here, but here I am.

Now, let me explain why I came to this all important decision.

There were two experiences that I had, one with a wonderfully compassionate nurse, and one with a horrible, neglectful nurse.

I wanted to emulate the wonderfully compassionate nurse.

I can never claim to be the World's Record Best Nurse in the Universe, but I think I am a good Nurse.

I think you go beyond just drawing a paycheck when you remember that you are caring for PEOPLE....

People who love and are loved in return, people who have parents, children, nieces, nephews, friends that CARE about them.

People who may not be on their best behavior for WHATEVER reason, people who may be lonely or afraid.

Laying there is someones Mama or Daddy, someones child, someones husband or wife, although to you they may just be a room number.

I am disappointed in the nursing profession....

Oh, not ALL of the nursing profession. I know there are still those out there who are nurses for the same reason I am.

But, of late, I have seen too many nurses that don't appear to me to be in it for the same reasons that I am...

And that makes me....ANGRY

Who do you think you are that you cannot get YOUR patient up on the bedside commode because the Aide is busy? What makes it OK for them to sit there in pain until you finish your on-line shopping or get off the phone?

Why are YOU too good to change their sheets when they get dirty or give them a bath?

If you are going to be a sorry nurse then I am GOING to point out your faults...if you don't like it, find yourself another profession where someones life is NOT in your hands.

I NEVER like to tell anyone I am a nurse when my family is in the hospital because, to me it is only done to intimidate. But, if YOU are going to give shoddy care then I AM going to say something, and take it as high as it needs to go.

Do you want to know why nursing is not respected as it once was? Because we have bred some lazy, self-centered nurses that think because they passed a test they deserve a paycheck.

I got news for you.....you deserve nothing.

When you clock in for your shift you are saying that you will CARE for your patients. What a concept!!

That doesn't mean that you sit at the nurses station and chart what the Aide says they are doing when they take the vital signs. That means you get off your lazy behind and go down the hall and INTERACT with YOUR patients that YOU were assigned to care for.

If you are charting that the patient was asleep and you didn't even look at them YOU ARE COMMITTING FRAUD!!

IF you became a nurse because you thought you were going to make big bucks then I pray to GOD that you never care for a member of my family.

And, just for the record, when I cared for YOUR family, I did it as if they were my own.

Have a nice day.