I Held ON

*Inspired by a song written by my awesome Pastor, Ben Weeks, and performed by his awesome wife, Sis. Valerie Weeks*



Back in 1989 I was baptized in the Name of Jesus for the remission of sins and received the wonderful gift of the Holy Ghost....

And in 1991 I threw it away. I just threw it away.

I knew what I had done. Knew what I had given up. My soul cried out continually even as I got further and further away.

Then in March of 1996 I made my way back to Him. How blessed I am to have found the way again.

Since that time there have been battles, trials, disappointments and heartaches. I have cried some bitter tears and wondered when I would have peace again.

I am not super saint....I have by my own desperation held on....

I have locked my hands around the beautiful faith, dug my nails into what I know to be true.

Even in the direst of circumstances I have held on.....

In the darkest of my nights, I held on....

In the depths of my sorrow, I held on....

In the midst of the fiercest storms, I held on....

When that's all that I could do, that's what I did...

I just held on.

And when people see me, when people know my struggles, I NEVER want them to think that it was something special about ME that got me through. The only thing special about me is my ability to grip to what I KNOW will sustain me.

I have tried Him....I know

And although He will NEVER let me go, I know from experience how easy it can be to let Him go. I know how easy it is to get swallowed up by sin. I have been on both sides of the fence and I know that even through the hard times, even through the bad times, even through the pain and the heartaches, the grass is greener on this side.

I'm holding on to His unchanging hand. As the world becomes more and more corrupt He becomes more and more precious to me.

"You asked me how it is I'm still standing.....I Held ON....."