Waiting

I can still see you
Sitting there
The cold stone beneath you
Colder stone in front of you
Holding your cane
Staring ahead
What memories did you see?
What words did you speak
To your love
Now lost to you
If only for a time
As you remain
Waiting

It's Not All It's Cracked Up To Be

I have been through many stages in my life. I have held many positions and enjoyed success and even tasted failure.

I have spent my time in ways that were not very beneficial or productive and I have had times where I felt like everything was going my way.

One lesson I have learned in life that always proves to be true: The grass really is never greener on the other side.

I have longed for things that, once I had them within my grasp, I quickly realized they were nothing to be desired.

cracked cracked up to be asserted to be (used to indicate that someone or something has been described too favorably). informal
•This expression stems from the use of crack as an adjective to mean ‘pre-eminent’, a sense which dates from the late 18th century.

Have you ever longed for something; material things, position, a relationship with someone, etc. only to find when you got them, when you got that glory you had longed for, it just wasn't everything it was cracked up to be?

Boy, I have.

I have realized, at times, that I am in a place that I don't particularly want to be in. And, I will be honest and admit, I sometimes whine about my circumstances, although I make a conscious effort to refrain from doing so.

But it happens at times.

There is a better attitude to have when I find everything is not as I thought it would be, a winning attitude.

Phillippians 4:11....for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content.

So, lately I have found myself in this situation that I really would love to just throw myself on the floor and kick my feet and pound the ground with my fists....

Instead I have decided to see only the good of the situation, to focus on what it is teaching me. Granted, I had to make a trip to the chiropractor to get the knots out of my neck, but even in that, I refuse to be defeated.

Phillippians 4:12-13 I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need. (WHY???) I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHICH STRENGTHENETH ME!!

At times I look around and realize that the place I am in may not be all it is cracked up to be, but through Him I have learned how to take the good with the bad. I can make through ALL situations by His strength.

And no matter where I am....I have learned to find contentment.

In your face, devil. You lose again....

It's MY Day!!!

On November 16, 1987 I embarked on a journey that will last for the rest of my life.

I became a mother.

I was one month shy of turning 21, still a baby in so many ways. Suddenly I had this little life I was in charge of.

I still remember the feeling of holding both of my babies for the very first time. There has not been another feeling like it yet for me.

I have done many things since that day almost 23 years ago, but I must say, nothing else has compared!

And everything else that I have done has only been enhanced by the fact that I am a mother.

I am still in awe of them after all these years. They are amazing and I cannot wait until the day they become parents (in God's time of course!) so that I can step into what I will consider the role of a lifetime....I will become a Mammy!!

Thank you Lord for your many incredible blessings! I am, among women, most blessed!!!!!