He got me.....
He hit the proverbial nail on the head this morning.
Here I was, prepared to enjoy a wonderful sermon, gather some nuggets of wisdom to chew on later, and move on with my life.
Then, BOOM.
Hammer.....Nail......
And, I was suddenly reminded that He not only knows me, He loves me.
I have made some horrible mistakes. Really, I have. I don't deny them. I live with them every day. And, I do my best to trudge on in spite of my mistakes.
If you read back in my blog history, I am sure you will come across many of what my family lovingly call "Stupid Sheri Stories." Oh, my life is loaded with them. Most of them are hilarious. Even as they are happening I am thinking, "wait till they hear this one!"
But, there are some Stupid Sheri Stories I have only shared with the Lord. Some things that have happened to me are too much, too painful, too heartbreaking, and too much to let slip out of my lips to another person besides the one Who loves me most of all.
Recently I realized that something I thought I had long ago dealt with and buried was still there. It was festering within me, causing me pain. I was walking around my house, telling this proverbial person exactly what I thought of all that had happened when I knew it was not gone.
Everyone hurts. Everyone has pain that is below the surface of their perfect lives. Everyone. Some people become victims of that pain. They wrap it around them and use it as a jumping board for other areas of their lives that are not as they should be. Well, I'm this way because my parents divorced, or I am like this because of something that happened in childhood. And, they, as my Pastor so wisely said this morning, lock this person that caused them hurt in a prison of unforgiveness and then can never understand why they cannot move forward.
Only, this morning, I was that person with the key to the prison. And, it was time for me to open the door and let a couple of folks out.
There was an angel that came into the prison where Simon Peter laid, waiting for his execution in the morning. That angel told him to get up, put his shoes on and walk out. Those iron doors swung open and Peter walked right out the door.
Peter, who had done so many wonderful things. Peter, who preached to the multitudes on the Day of Pentecost. Peter, who was "the rock" as Jesus said. Peter, who denied the Lord. Peter who walked out on water then let fear grasp him and sank before the Lord, begging to be saved.
Peter. Imperfect Peter.
He walked out of the prison to the house of his friends who were all praying for him. And they wouldn't let him in.
But, he kept knocking.
He could have walked away in those early morning hours. But, he kept knocking.
The iron doors of the prison had just swung open, now a wooden door that kept him from his friends was closed to him.
So, he kept knocking.
God has done more for me than I could ever convey.
There was a time in my life that I was deeply afraid. I was terrified, to be exact. I had gotten myself in a horrible mess and I knew no way out, except to pray.
And, pray I did.
The miraculous things that followed that desperate prayer were nothing short of that iron prison door swinging open. He moved mountains to move me out of danger.
And, He has surely done more since. Things I know could only be Him.
So, recently after I have been praying something happened, that honestly is part of the answer to my praying, only I didn't see it that way. All I could see is those mistakes I have made and I felt defeated.
I was standing at that wooden door and I felt like there was no use for me to knock any longer. But, only for a moment. Then, I remembered the gate of iron and I knew I could do it.
But, first I had my own iron gates to open. I had to let go of the hurt of yesterday and those who had hurt me. I have no idea why I expected them to behave different than they did. I trusted them. And they hurt me. So, I have locked them away like inmates in my heart. But, they are free. It has been me that has been a prisoner.
Today. You are free. I am letting go of what you did. I know you are a slave to alcohol and the sins of the flesh. You were only serving your masters. I think you loved me as much as you were able. I can no longer carry the dead weight of you around with me. You didn't want me. I'm letting you go.
Today I am letting you go. You are free. I will no longer carry around the hurt from the terrible things that happened while I tried to love you. You belong to a different world than I could ever understand. I cannot carry you around any longer. I am not responsible for you. I know you never loved me. You only used me. And, I have to let go of the fact that you made me feel like I was nothing. Because I am not nothing.
Today, I stand knocking on the door. The door to my own future. I have accepted many things about it. But, what I know right now is I am NOT in control of my future. I am trusting You to lead the way. I won't stop knocking until the door opens.
Sunday, June 7, 2020
Thursday, April 9, 2020
Never Have I Ever
If you are reading this some time in the future, you will note by the date that we are in the throws of a very strange time for us.
Every 100 years, it seems, some major "thing" happens. That major thing happening right now is called COVID-19.
I am a healthcare worker, I am an RN. I have been for 25 years. I have seen times where we thought this was going to happen, but this is not a drill.
Everyday life as we know it has come to a halt. We are all practicing "social distancing" and buying up all of the toilet paper we can find because, you know, you may run out and can't leave the house. Or, whatever logic was used by everyone who bought it all up.
Schools are closed. Social activities have stopped. You cannot go eat at a restaurant. I can't make this up! It is happening live right now.
I could go major indepth here. Give you some Bible and maybe scare you into being "saved" at least until this is over. But, I'm not.
I want to say right now and have the future bear witness to this that "This too shall pass."
All of our current fears, all of the uncertainty, all of the sickness, the deaths, all of it, it will pass.
I'm not afraid of tomorrow. We have weathered many storms here on earth.
I listened to the news this morning. Various news snippets from various providers. One theme for them all...blame. Blame the CDC. Blame the producers of PPE. Blame the government. It was disgusting. All the finger pointing from main stream media gets ridiculous. Not once, not once did I hear any of them on any broadcast offer anything positive. And, if they have all the answers, why didn't the all powerful media do something besides the blame game.
I was raised by a newspaper man in the days when the press maybe had a little more integrity. I can remember him telling me when I went to work at the paper that I wasn't entitled to an opinion, I was only entitled to tell the facts.
haha THOSE days are gone.
Like any of us have the answers right now? Seriously. This is something none of us have experienced. You have turned this whole situation into an agenda and that is wrong. You should be helping us see life as it is. If I were your mother I would send you to your room.
Mainstream Media You STINK.
Yours Truly,
Sheri
Every 100 years, it seems, some major "thing" happens. That major thing happening right now is called COVID-19.
I am a healthcare worker, I am an RN. I have been for 25 years. I have seen times where we thought this was going to happen, but this is not a drill.
Everyday life as we know it has come to a halt. We are all practicing "social distancing" and buying up all of the toilet paper we can find because, you know, you may run out and can't leave the house. Or, whatever logic was used by everyone who bought it all up.
Schools are closed. Social activities have stopped. You cannot go eat at a restaurant. I can't make this up! It is happening live right now.
I could go major indepth here. Give you some Bible and maybe scare you into being "saved" at least until this is over. But, I'm not.
I want to say right now and have the future bear witness to this that "This too shall pass."
All of our current fears, all of the uncertainty, all of the sickness, the deaths, all of it, it will pass.
I'm not afraid of tomorrow. We have weathered many storms here on earth.
I listened to the news this morning. Various news snippets from various providers. One theme for them all...blame. Blame the CDC. Blame the producers of PPE. Blame the government. It was disgusting. All the finger pointing from main stream media gets ridiculous. Not once, not once did I hear any of them on any broadcast offer anything positive. And, if they have all the answers, why didn't the all powerful media do something besides the blame game.
I was raised by a newspaper man in the days when the press maybe had a little more integrity. I can remember him telling me when I went to work at the paper that I wasn't entitled to an opinion, I was only entitled to tell the facts.
haha THOSE days are gone.
Like any of us have the answers right now? Seriously. This is something none of us have experienced. You have turned this whole situation into an agenda and that is wrong. You should be helping us see life as it is. If I were your mother I would send you to your room.
Mainstream Media You STINK.
Yours Truly,
Sheri
Friday, January 31, 2020
Who I Am
I wish I would remember more often to place my thoughts here. For a time, it was such a vital part of my life, but years have changed me in many ways, and I have allowed this to kind of slip from me.
I “accidentally” hit my blog in my bookmarks and I paused to read. And, I cried.
Wow. How much time has changed.
It is 2020. If that wasn’t amazing enough I am 53. AND a grandmother.
Several years ago I went through a horrible time. I lost my parents within 3 months of each other. To be honest, I feel like I lost myself there for a while.
My marriage suffered through that lost and before I knew it, I had allowed it to sift through my fingers like sand, tossing aside 26 years. And the circumstances had left me broken. Terribly damaged.
I made decisions at a time when I had no business deciding anything and it just got worse from there. BUT....
Here I am.
All this stuff happened. And then, something wonderful came out of it all.
ME.
For so many years I looked to others for my happiness. Finally, I’m happy with me, the ME that Jesus has made me.
I have such a rich life. So much love.
I was eating my supper tonight and my phone rang. It was my niece, Whitney’s number. I answered and said I was glad she called because I was going to call her.
Instead of Whit, I heard this sweet voice saying Hey Aunt Sherwee!
It was my GREAT niece, Chapel. We chatted about her life. And she told me her Daddy had bought her “Pirate cereal” aka Captain Crunch. She said they were tired and they were home now.
Did I mention she is 3?
Then I heard the voice of her Dad saying “Chapel, WHO are you talking to?”
She answered, “Aunt Sherwee!” Like, Duh.
Her Mama’s voice then piped in. She said they had just got back from grocery shopping and were unloading. They left Chapel in her car seat until they were done. It seems Chap has figured out how to use Siri to call people.
Imagine that.
Of all the people she knows love her, she called her Aunt Sherwee.
That’s when it really hit me.
Jesus, You have given me everything I ever prayed for. How could You possibly love me this much? I will never deserve it, but I am grateful. All those sad, pathetic blogs when I wanted what I had always dreamed of, and You delivered me from myself right into the dreams You dreamed for me. And they are so much better than anything I could have ever hoped for. Thank you, Lord for loving me THIS MUCH!
I “accidentally” hit my blog in my bookmarks and I paused to read. And, I cried.
Wow. How much time has changed.
It is 2020. If that wasn’t amazing enough I am 53. AND a grandmother.
Several years ago I went through a horrible time. I lost my parents within 3 months of each other. To be honest, I feel like I lost myself there for a while.
My marriage suffered through that lost and before I knew it, I had allowed it to sift through my fingers like sand, tossing aside 26 years. And the circumstances had left me broken. Terribly damaged.
I made decisions at a time when I had no business deciding anything and it just got worse from there. BUT....
Here I am.
All this stuff happened. And then, something wonderful came out of it all.
ME.
For so many years I looked to others for my happiness. Finally, I’m happy with me, the ME that Jesus has made me.
I have such a rich life. So much love.
I was eating my supper tonight and my phone rang. It was my niece, Whitney’s number. I answered and said I was glad she called because I was going to call her.
Instead of Whit, I heard this sweet voice saying Hey Aunt Sherwee!
It was my GREAT niece, Chapel. We chatted about her life. And she told me her Daddy had bought her “Pirate cereal” aka Captain Crunch. She said they were tired and they were home now.
Did I mention she is 3?
Then I heard the voice of her Dad saying “Chapel, WHO are you talking to?”
She answered, “Aunt Sherwee!” Like, Duh.
Her Mama’s voice then piped in. She said they had just got back from grocery shopping and were unloading. They left Chapel in her car seat until they were done. It seems Chap has figured out how to use Siri to call people.
Imagine that.
Of all the people she knows love her, she called her Aunt Sherwee.
That’s when it really hit me.
Jesus, You have given me everything I ever prayed for. How could You possibly love me this much? I will never deserve it, but I am grateful. All those sad, pathetic blogs when I wanted what I had always dreamed of, and You delivered me from myself right into the dreams You dreamed for me. And they are so much better than anything I could have ever hoped for. Thank you, Lord for loving me THIS MUCH!
Saturday, January 26, 2019
Run For Your Life
I wish I could take credit for the thoughts that follow but, alas, I cannot. This comes from a message preached by my own Pastor, Rev. J. Tim Merritt, this past Sunday as we prepared for Communion and Foot Washing service.
I am merely attempting here to put these thoughts in writing. Please go to our website www.truthwaychurch.com to access the entire message. It is well worth your listen.
There was an older couple, Bro. and Sis. Ruth, that we went to church with many years ago. They were true pillars of faith and such a tremendous example for me. On occasion, they would get up and sing this song titled, "I'm Running for my Life." It never failed to get us all in a spirit of worship. The words were simple:
I'm running for my life,
I'm running for my life,
I'm running for my life,
I'm running for my life,
If anybody asks you
What's the matter with me,
You can tell them that I'm saved and I'm sanctified,
I'm Holy Ghost filled and water baptized,
I've got Jesus on my mind,
I'm running for my life.
Genesis 19: 15-26 relates the powerful story of Lot at the fall of Sodom and Gomorrah. Let's go there and read it.
15 And when the morning arose, then the angels hastened Lot, saying, Arise, take thy wife, and thy two daughters, which are here; lest thou be consumed in the iniquity of the city.
16 And while he lingered, the men laid hold upon his hand, and upon the hand of his wife, and upon the hand of his two daughters; the Lord being merciful unto him: and they brought him forth, and set him without the city.
17 And it came to pass, when they had brought them forth abroad, that he said, Escape for thy life; look not behind thee, neither stay thou in all the plain; escape to the mountain, lest thou be consumed.
18 And Lot said unto them, Oh, not so, my Lord:
19 Behold now, thy servant hath found grace in thy sight, and thou hast magnified thy mercy, which thou hast shewed unto me in saving my life; and I cannot escape to the mountain, lest some evil take me, and I die:
20 Behold now, this city is near to flee unto, and it is a little one: Oh, let me escape thither, (is it not a little one?) and my soul shall live.
21 And he said unto him, See, I have accepted thee concerning this thing also, that I will not overthrow this city, for the which thou hast spoken.
22 Haste thee, escape thither; for I cannot do anything till thou be come thither. Therefore the name of the city was called Zoar.
23 The sun was risen upon the earth when Lot entered into Zoar.
24 Then the Lord rained upon Sodom and upon Gomorrah brimstone and fire from the Lord out of heaven;
25 And he overthrew those cities, and all the plain, and all the inhabitants of the cities, and that which grew upon the ground.
26 But his wife looked back from behind him, and she became a pillar of salt.
When Lot and Abram parted ways, Lot chose the well watered and beautiful land near Sodom.
10 And Lot lifted up his eyes, and beheld all the plain of Jordan, that it was well watered every where, before the Lord destroyed Sodom and Gomorrah, even as the garden of the Lord, like the land of Egypt, as thou comest unto Zoar.
11 Then Lot chose him all the plain of Jordan; and Lot journeyed east: and they separated themselves the one from the other.
12 Abram dwelled in the land of Canaan, and Lot dwelled in the cities of the plain, and pitched his tent toward Sodom.
13 But the men of Sodom were wicked and sinners before the Lord exceedingly.
Many choices we make look good from a distance, but they are near Sodom, and if we are not careful, we will find ourselves as Lot did. Notice here that Lot "pitched his tent toward Sodom." But, if you look just one chapter over, you find this.
Genesis 14:11-12
11 And they took all the goods of Sodom and Gomorrah, and all their victuals, and went their way.
12 And they took Lot, Abram's brother's son, who dwelt in Sodom, and his goods, and departed.
In a short amount of time, Lot was not just looking toward Sodom, he was in it! He was living there, known in the streets, he was someone in the city.
Let's take a side track here. Sin will take you farther than you ever planned to go. One day you are just looking at that bad website, one day you are just trying to connect with a "friend" from your past, one day you just decide to go after work with your workmates, but sin never leaves you there. It's usually not a one time stop. Next time it is easier to get a little closer and a littler closer until you are consumed with sin.
Sodom was a wicked place. If you read the descriptions, it sounds much like the modern day culture we will live in. If you don't think that sin will take you farther than you ever wanted to go, read chapter 19 of Genesis in its entirety. Lot actually offered to give his daughters to the wicked men who came to the door demanding that the angels be sent out to them. What father would do that? I tell you it is one living outside of the protection of God.
God's message was clear. Run for your life. Don't look back.
And yet Lot insisted on a compromise, send me to Zoar.
Zoar which means insignificant.
Lot had choices to make. And his choices led him to a place of insignificance.
Has God called you out of a situation? Has he provided you an escape route to a life going nowhere fast? Has He delivered you from sin?
Run.
Don't argue, quit justifying.
Don't look back.
The main thing most people think of is Lot's wife who was turned into a pillar of salt for looking back at the life she was leaving behind. Lot's wife, who was never even mentioned by name. Her great claim to fame in the Bible, if you will, was her disobedience and the consequences of it.
Here we are, folks.
2019.
It is crazy to believe that. But, it's true.
And, it seems to me there is a shift happening.
We have some decisions to make. Do we leave some things behind and escape these areas that have been harming us spiritually? Do we "pitch our tents" toward the sins that have been holding us back?
Or do we run and never look back?
RUN.
I say we RUN.
I am merely attempting here to put these thoughts in writing. Please go to our website www.truthwaychurch.com to access the entire message. It is well worth your listen.
There was an older couple, Bro. and Sis. Ruth, that we went to church with many years ago. They were true pillars of faith and such a tremendous example for me. On occasion, they would get up and sing this song titled, "I'm Running for my Life." It never failed to get us all in a spirit of worship. The words were simple:
I'm running for my life,
I'm running for my life,
I'm running for my life,
I'm running for my life,
If anybody asks you
What's the matter with me,
You can tell them that I'm saved and I'm sanctified,
I'm Holy Ghost filled and water baptized,
I've got Jesus on my mind,
I'm running for my life.
Genesis 19: 15-26 relates the powerful story of Lot at the fall of Sodom and Gomorrah. Let's go there and read it.
15 And when the morning arose, then the angels hastened Lot, saying, Arise, take thy wife, and thy two daughters, which are here; lest thou be consumed in the iniquity of the city.
16 And while he lingered, the men laid hold upon his hand, and upon the hand of his wife, and upon the hand of his two daughters; the Lord being merciful unto him: and they brought him forth, and set him without the city.
17 And it came to pass, when they had brought them forth abroad, that he said, Escape for thy life; look not behind thee, neither stay thou in all the plain; escape to the mountain, lest thou be consumed.
18 And Lot said unto them, Oh, not so, my Lord:
19 Behold now, thy servant hath found grace in thy sight, and thou hast magnified thy mercy, which thou hast shewed unto me in saving my life; and I cannot escape to the mountain, lest some evil take me, and I die:
20 Behold now, this city is near to flee unto, and it is a little one: Oh, let me escape thither, (is it not a little one?) and my soul shall live.
21 And he said unto him, See, I have accepted thee concerning this thing also, that I will not overthrow this city, for the which thou hast spoken.
22 Haste thee, escape thither; for I cannot do anything till thou be come thither. Therefore the name of the city was called Zoar.
23 The sun was risen upon the earth when Lot entered into Zoar.
24 Then the Lord rained upon Sodom and upon Gomorrah brimstone and fire from the Lord out of heaven;
25 And he overthrew those cities, and all the plain, and all the inhabitants of the cities, and that which grew upon the ground.
26 But his wife looked back from behind him, and she became a pillar of salt.
When Lot and Abram parted ways, Lot chose the well watered and beautiful land near Sodom.
Genesis 13:10-13
10 And Lot lifted up his eyes, and beheld all the plain of Jordan, that it was well watered every where, before the Lord destroyed Sodom and Gomorrah, even as the garden of the Lord, like the land of Egypt, as thou comest unto Zoar.
11 Then Lot chose him all the plain of Jordan; and Lot journeyed east: and they separated themselves the one from the other.
12 Abram dwelled in the land of Canaan, and Lot dwelled in the cities of the plain, and pitched his tent toward Sodom.
13 But the men of Sodom were wicked and sinners before the Lord exceedingly.
Many choices we make look good from a distance, but they are near Sodom, and if we are not careful, we will find ourselves as Lot did. Notice here that Lot "pitched his tent toward Sodom." But, if you look just one chapter over, you find this.
Genesis 14:11-12
11 And they took all the goods of Sodom and Gomorrah, and all their victuals, and went their way.
12 And they took Lot, Abram's brother's son, who dwelt in Sodom, and his goods, and departed.
In a short amount of time, Lot was not just looking toward Sodom, he was in it! He was living there, known in the streets, he was someone in the city.
Let's take a side track here. Sin will take you farther than you ever planned to go. One day you are just looking at that bad website, one day you are just trying to connect with a "friend" from your past, one day you just decide to go after work with your workmates, but sin never leaves you there. It's usually not a one time stop. Next time it is easier to get a little closer and a littler closer until you are consumed with sin.
Sodom was a wicked place. If you read the descriptions, it sounds much like the modern day culture we will live in. If you don't think that sin will take you farther than you ever wanted to go, read chapter 19 of Genesis in its entirety. Lot actually offered to give his daughters to the wicked men who came to the door demanding that the angels be sent out to them. What father would do that? I tell you it is one living outside of the protection of God.
God's message was clear. Run for your life. Don't look back.
And yet Lot insisted on a compromise, send me to Zoar.
Zoar which means insignificant.
Lot had choices to make. And his choices led him to a place of insignificance.
Has God called you out of a situation? Has he provided you an escape route to a life going nowhere fast? Has He delivered you from sin?
Run.
Don't argue, quit justifying.
Don't look back.
The main thing most people think of is Lot's wife who was turned into a pillar of salt for looking back at the life she was leaving behind. Lot's wife, who was never even mentioned by name. Her great claim to fame in the Bible, if you will, was her disobedience and the consequences of it.
Here we are, folks.
2019.
It is crazy to believe that. But, it's true.
And, it seems to me there is a shift happening.
We have some decisions to make. Do we leave some things behind and escape these areas that have been harming us spiritually? Do we "pitch our tents" toward the sins that have been holding us back?
Or do we run and never look back?
RUN.
I say we RUN.
Tuesday, January 15, 2019
This is the Will of God for YOU
I had a conversation with someone recently that was telling me about their current situation that seems dire.
You have a place to take a bath, I am assuming. You have clean clothes in your bedroom to wear and a bed to crawl into when the time comes that is warm and safe.
You have food in your pantry and a stove to cook it on.
Most of us have an abundance of STUFF, yet we think we are lacking.
What if you didn't?
Let's say you found yourself without a job, without a home, with one change of clothes, no vehicle, no money, no hope.......
Do you think you would be thankful?
Honestly?
I am going to take a chance and answer that for you.
NO.
You would not.
How can I say that?
Because you are not thankful now.
Oh, I said it. And, if you can be honest, you know it's the truth.
You AREN'T thankful.
Every day you are living in abundance. Even if you choose not to see it.
Do problems come? You bet they do. So does heartache and sorrow. So does grief and pain. He didn't tell us to give thanks when we have an overflow. Let's look at that verse, shall we?
I Thessalonians 5:18 In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.
Every.
Thing.
Not In SOME things give thanks.
Not In HAPPY things give thanks.
The person I was talking with is burdened down. Truly at the bottom.
My advise?
Thank GOD for the bottom. Really.
I spent several years outside of the Will of God. Way outside. And, in order for God to bring me back I had to hit my own bottom. I lay awake night after night begging God and in total and utter fear. Because of those times, I have broken places, I have scars that I should not have.
This morning in prayer I began to lift my voice in thanksgiving for every broken place, every scar, because through those scars and through that brokenness I learned to turn to Him to heal me.
Through the death of my parents and through the death of my marriage I learned to turn to Him for comfort.
Through the trials I face I learned to look to Him for guidance and wisdom.
Through the fear I learned to turn to Him for strength.
Because of my own fall, I can see others living outside of the Mercy of God with NEW eyes, eyes of compassion. And it has given me a new sense of urgency to reach the lost world.
As I poured out my thanks to Him this morning, He met me there and poured out His Spirit on me.
This IS the will of God for me.....
You have a place to take a bath, I am assuming. You have clean clothes in your bedroom to wear and a bed to crawl into when the time comes that is warm and safe.
You have food in your pantry and a stove to cook it on.
Most of us have an abundance of STUFF, yet we think we are lacking.
What if you didn't?
Let's say you found yourself without a job, without a home, with one change of clothes, no vehicle, no money, no hope.......
Do you think you would be thankful?
Honestly?
I am going to take a chance and answer that for you.
NO.
You would not.
How can I say that?
Because you are not thankful now.
Oh, I said it. And, if you can be honest, you know it's the truth.
You AREN'T thankful.
Every day you are living in abundance. Even if you choose not to see it.
Do problems come? You bet they do. So does heartache and sorrow. So does grief and pain. He didn't tell us to give thanks when we have an overflow. Let's look at that verse, shall we?
I Thessalonians 5:18 In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.
Every.
Thing.
Not In SOME things give thanks.
Not In HAPPY things give thanks.
The person I was talking with is burdened down. Truly at the bottom.
My advise?
Thank GOD for the bottom. Really.
I spent several years outside of the Will of God. Way outside. And, in order for God to bring me back I had to hit my own bottom. I lay awake night after night begging God and in total and utter fear. Because of those times, I have broken places, I have scars that I should not have.
This morning in prayer I began to lift my voice in thanksgiving for every broken place, every scar, because through those scars and through that brokenness I learned to turn to Him to heal me.
Through the death of my parents and through the death of my marriage I learned to turn to Him for comfort.
Through the trials I face I learned to look to Him for guidance and wisdom.
Through the fear I learned to turn to Him for strength.
Because of my own fall, I can see others living outside of the Mercy of God with NEW eyes, eyes of compassion. And it has given me a new sense of urgency to reach the lost world.
As I poured out my thanks to Him this morning, He met me there and poured out His Spirit on me.
This IS the will of God for me.....
Sunday, December 31, 2017
2018 - New Year~New Chances
I started this blog in 2006 to help me cope with the terrible health issues of my parents. So much has changed in 11 years.
I think it’s time my Blog did, too.
Be on the lookout for something new coming up soon.
I think it’s time my Blog did, too.
Be on the lookout for something new coming up soon.
Sunday, October 22, 2017
That’s What You Think
I haven’t blogged as much as I should lately. Not because I don’t have anything to say, but because I don’t have a convenient way to say it. I allowed someone to borrow my laptop for a time and it is difficult to compose and catch boo boo’s on my phone because, well, I’m getting older. Haha
But, I did find something among my comments that I have failed to address. I hate pettiness. Hate it. So, basically I made a decision when I spotted it to let it go. I deleted it.
I’m in a different frame of mind now. I don’t feel like letting it go.
Iniquity is the WILLFUL choice to sin. And I did it. I made some very wrong decisions in my life and those decisions cost me in ways only me and Jesus will ever know.
And I found myself in a world of hurt and disappointment. Because I made wrong choices.
It was the best thing that ever happened to me.
Because I messed my life up I hit bottom. Guess what I found there?
The courage to look up. I lifted my head in the center of calamity and my redemption drew nigh.
The worst pain I have ever experienced has brought me the greatest joy. The destruction of me gave me faith I never had before. And courage I didn’t know existed in me.
I won’t go into great detail but I will say this. Because of this God spoke to me, I have seen miracles in my life that have increased my faith to unbelievable levels.
Yep, I went through it. But no need to feel sorry for me. God had a purpose and a plan. What you meant to harm me He meant for my good
Think what you want. I know.
Because of what happened souls were saved. Because of what happened lives were changed. Because of what happened to me God put me in a position to use me in a mighty way. My problems didn’t take Him by surprise.
I appreciate your concern but I know it wasn’t truly concern for me at all. It was an opportunity for you to thumb your nose at me at a point in my life where I was hurting. And that’s okay. I have learned from experience you never elevate yourself by climbing up on the heartaches of others.
Here is my question for you. What have YOU done to better your life? To dig yourself out of your situation? To make life better for someone else? There is pleasure in sin for a season, but seasons change. If you are so concerned for me did you pray for me? I hope that you did.
God has blessed me beyond measure. So know without a doubt YOU are in my prayers. I’m praying for you. That God will get a hold of you and pull you out of the pit of sin. That He will fill you with the Holy Ghost and make your story and testimony one of power to reach others.
You think you know me. But thank God that person doesn’t exist anymore. All that happened because of my choices is under the blood. And I sit here tonight at peace.
God bless.
But, I did find something among my comments that I have failed to address. I hate pettiness. Hate it. So, basically I made a decision when I spotted it to let it go. I deleted it.
I’m in a different frame of mind now. I don’t feel like letting it go.
Iniquity is the WILLFUL choice to sin. And I did it. I made some very wrong decisions in my life and those decisions cost me in ways only me and Jesus will ever know.
And I found myself in a world of hurt and disappointment. Because I made wrong choices.
It was the best thing that ever happened to me.
Because I messed my life up I hit bottom. Guess what I found there?
The courage to look up. I lifted my head in the center of calamity and my redemption drew nigh.
The worst pain I have ever experienced has brought me the greatest joy. The destruction of me gave me faith I never had before. And courage I didn’t know existed in me.
I won’t go into great detail but I will say this. Because of this God spoke to me, I have seen miracles in my life that have increased my faith to unbelievable levels.
Yep, I went through it. But no need to feel sorry for me. God had a purpose and a plan. What you meant to harm me He meant for my good
Think what you want. I know.
Because of what happened souls were saved. Because of what happened lives were changed. Because of what happened to me God put me in a position to use me in a mighty way. My problems didn’t take Him by surprise.
I appreciate your concern but I know it wasn’t truly concern for me at all. It was an opportunity for you to thumb your nose at me at a point in my life where I was hurting. And that’s okay. I have learned from experience you never elevate yourself by climbing up on the heartaches of others.
Here is my question for you. What have YOU done to better your life? To dig yourself out of your situation? To make life better for someone else? There is pleasure in sin for a season, but seasons change. If you are so concerned for me did you pray for me? I hope that you did.
God has blessed me beyond measure. So know without a doubt YOU are in my prayers. I’m praying for you. That God will get a hold of you and pull you out of the pit of sin. That He will fill you with the Holy Ghost and make your story and testimony one of power to reach others.
You think you know me. But thank God that person doesn’t exist anymore. All that happened because of my choices is under the blood. And I sit here tonight at peace.
God bless.
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